why

obsessing about the death of heath ledger today
searching the internet for information
too much out there
body bag and 'found naked'
why is that there for me to see and read?
and yet, the answers that i want
do not exist
someone's brother, son, and father
to a child not much older than molly
i did not KNOW him
barely saw his movies, a few interviews
but feeling a loss today
and wondering why
about many things